The last month or so (or maybe longer) have been really stressful.  Stressed about my job, stressed about Luke finishing his Masters, stressed about maybe having to move, and the list just goes on and on and on. . . .

WHY?  Because I’m scared.  I’m scared i’ll screw up, that I will make the wrong choice, that I will regret.  But this weekend was about bringing me back to what matters the most in life.  Trusting God.

Am I willing to let go? To take a risk?  How do I know what God is wanting me to do?  In my last post, I mentioned the idea of Listening Prayer (affiliate).  And how God is speaking to us, how He wants us to trust Him.  Big changes will be taking place in my family’s life in the next couple weeks.  Changes that feel risky, but yet I know I have to follow my heart.  I was reminded this weekend through worship that my faith needs to be ignited.  My flame is burning low.  Fire needs air to breathe, and its being smothered by my fear, my lack of trusting God. . .

Considering the last few months, or if I’m really honest the last few years, I haven’t practiced enough of that Listening Prayer (affiliate).  My prayer life has mostly been a monologue.  But I’m trying to change that. By opening my Bible more. By taking a deep breath and being quiet.  By recognizing the small voice guiding my way.  It’s still kinda scary, but I’m not alone.  I don’t have to worry, don’t have to stress.  I probably still will to a degree.  Its going to be a process, this igniting your faith stuff.

I want so desperately to be a light in this world.  To be the hands and feet of Jesus Christ.  To show the world how much He loves them.  How no one is alone. Because God is with you, He is always with you.  No matter what any of us go through, God is carrying us through, we just need to let him.